My tears
Was it self- pity?
Was it fear?
Was it woes?
Or maybe a combination of these 3 factors that move me to my tears and knees?
The visit to the optician, the frustration of choosing either a CL or spectacles, the fact that it's not possible for me to have perfect vision in my KC eye, the cost and other 1001 questions that I have... it was all too much to bear. Clutching my mobile phone, I thought of a list of people whom I can call as my tears well up but none of them seems appropriate.
I kneel.
It's beyond my strength to battle Keratoconus. It's beyond my tolerance to know that I'm losing my vision day by day and there's nothing much I can do about it. It's beyond my capability to love others when I screaming for love and affection. It's beyond me to smile and keep my life going when all I want is to take a break from everything.
I kneel and gave Him all my tears and fears.
He, in return gives me grace, strength, hope and love to keep me going.
Was it fear?
Was it woes?
Or maybe a combination of these 3 factors that move me to my tears and knees?
The visit to the optician, the frustration of choosing either a CL or spectacles, the fact that it's not possible for me to have perfect vision in my KC eye, the cost and other 1001 questions that I have... it was all too much to bear. Clutching my mobile phone, I thought of a list of people whom I can call as my tears well up but none of them seems appropriate.
I kneel.
It's beyond my strength to battle Keratoconus. It's beyond my tolerance to know that I'm losing my vision day by day and there's nothing much I can do about it. It's beyond my capability to love others when I screaming for love and affection. It's beyond me to smile and keep my life going when all I want is to take a break from everything.
I kneel and gave Him all my tears and fears.
He, in return gives me grace, strength, hope and love to keep me going.
posted by keratoconusgirl @ 2:42 AM
3 Comments:
You're right. It's beyond us when something like this hits us. But it's during this times that we draw even closer to God.
2 Corinthians 12:9-11
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
We will be your vision and your light, take care gal
Thanks Gerome for that quote.
I thankful for the fact that I'm still able to wake up each day, seeing, seeing the people I love and reading His word. :)
Thanks TS for letting me know that I have a group of friends who are supportive and kind.
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