Losing sight...

I often ponder why we have to migrate from watery medicine to solid medicine; it is just so hard to get those solid medicines down my throat. No amount of water will help; hence I derived my way of consuming it. I will grab hold of a Chinese soup spoon, fill it up with hot water and tried my very best to dissolve the solid medicine before emptying it in a big gulp. According to my list, capsule is definitely one of the greatest inventions to benefit mankind! :)

Isn't it a pain that some things in life are like a solid medicine, hard to swallow but compelled to do otherwise?

I'm diagnosed with Keratoconus (KC) in my right eye just last Friday, 14th Jan 2005.

It's a degenerative, unpredictable, (usually) bilateral eye- condition that has a known active period of 5 to 10 years and is characterized by the thinning of the central cornea. That led to variable decrease in vision and increase of astigmatism. I'm in the early stage of KC and a well- prescribe spectacles will help to correct my vision. There will come a day where I have to rely on rigid contact lenses to correct my vision. The brute fact is that 20% of KC patients will eventually need a cornea transplant.

KC is by far, my hardest-to-swallow-solid-medicine.

And it is only through the strength of God that I'm able not only to accept it but accept it with a cheerful heart. It wasn't easy to come this far. One of the first things that I did upon diagnosis was to hit yahoo.com and conduct a big on- going search on KC. I'm also in the hunt for a Singapore Keratoconus support group or any Singaporean with Keratoconus. (Please kindly drop me a line if you belong to any of the 2 above mentioned group.)

There's probably nothing much I can do to stop the KC from degenerating except perhaps continue to send my little petitions to God. But if He choose not to answer my prayer, I know He will be there.. to melt the solid medicine with warm water in a Chinese soup spoon for me...

A happy heart is like good medicine, but a broken spirit drains your strength.

- Proverbs 17:22 (NCV)